Everything seems so..

Just now went to whitesands with sister and walked back home. Its all thanks to her brilliant idea that we walked back home. It took 45 minutes okay, and my legs were so wobbly, they were about to give way soon. Took sitting breaks once in a while. Then, at last reached home, brother ate my food. But eventually forgived him because he was too cute! :P.

Then, at whitesands, read a shirt that said, "Sometimes, the only way is to say goodbye.". Everything makes sense, suddenly. And sometimes that's what you got to do. Yesterday got to be the worst day ever. I hate yesterday. I hope yesterday never happened. But what's done can't be undone. I have friends to thank, for letting me confide in you and you reassuring me. Thanks N&S. I love you two! :). I smile when my heart is hurting.

But, it's time to move on right. I can't keep dwelling on the past. I need to move on. I can't be the dweller I'm known for. I'm sensitive, get that in your head. And I really hate people who lie to me, no matter what reasons you have. Eventhough the truth will hurt, I still want the truth. Truth hurts, but lies hurt more. Lies only makes it nice to hear, but once you know that everything is a lie, everything shatters. You doubt the person, you are scared. But I'll move on, right people? I'll see a brand new world, forget everything. I'll act as normal. But nothing will change, except for the farewell part.

Sometimes I wonder if I had carried things way too far. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing. Sometimes I wonder if is this all part of a dream? That I will wake up to and realise that everything never ever took place, it was just a dream, a bad nightmare, that I will wake up to eventually. But no, god won't let that happen. And this all just has to be a reality. The painful reality. Sometimes we got to resign ourselves to fate, I believe in fate, but I do not believe in resigning to fate. And when today, when I opened my eyes, I checked my inbox, everything is true. Everything really has taken place. And there is nothing that I can do, or anybody can do to fix it.

Well, people got to move on to make life happening. From now on, I won't be the dweller I used to be. (But, I'll still be the sensitive person. Hey! I can't do anything about that.). Sometimes, when Im alone, memories will come flooding back. I just read the msg, and if the point of the msg is to make me cry, you won. Now I'm doubting if all you said is true or lies. I don't know what to do. You've made me seen you in a different light. You've made me seen you differently. Everything changed yesterday. Nothing will go back to normal, about me and you. You've changed my perspective about you. You've abused my trust that I planted on you. You've abused it. And even S said that I trusted you too much. I trusted everything that you said, I cared for you. But if this is the return that you gave me ; a bunch of lies, that I trusted, that I believed. Now I don't know whether to act like nothing has ever happened and return to being my own self, or to face up to reality and be brave. I don't believe I'm gullible, maybe I am, but that's not the point.. Not yet.

Okay, I've finished talking. Now, when I blink and open my eyes, I'll return to my old self. Nothing about me will change. Believe me.

There, its done. Now Im back to my own self. I'll be cheerful and let nothing get in my way. SAYONARA PEOPLE! :DD!